Krisis does not always come with a bang
a storm heralded by a clap of thunder
or even a whimper, a cry for help
krisis can come like a big cat
creeping, camouflaged the colour of
golden grass until so close to it’s prey
escape is impossible
Pity the partner who too, close by has
failed to spot the marauder
– to sound the alarm until too late
and krisis has sprung, jaws locked on
to suffocate – flight impossible, frozen still
For something that arrives so quietly
depression nevertheless rules the roost
changes more lives than the victim’s
spreads it’s blight to partners
children, siblings, friends
and moments of freedom
are hard won – the result
of planning, cajoling
caring persuasion
and often a short reprieve
results in a reactive tightening
of the snare that binds
– would have the victim
knaw off their own leg
if only they had the energy
The only hope – to roll back the
malaise in the same way it came
a single step at a time
hoping a habit will take hold
and the novel become the norm
once more…
© Andrew Wilson, 2025
Over at dVerse Poets Pub, paeansunplugged in Poetics asks us to “write a poem about any pivotal moment in your life that left you with gnawing regrets or you could cover the entire gamut from anger to forgiveness and reconciliation. In short, you will be writing about a krisis in your personal life.”
Very heartfelt poem Andrew.
It is indeed Sadje, thanks for visiting…
You’re most welcome
I love the sound of the title, Andrew, a mixture of sibilance and the crack of a ‘k’ sound, and the simile and alliteration in krisis coming like a big cat ‘creeping, camouflaged the colour of golden grass’. I agree with you that depression rules the roost.
Thanks, Kim, writing in the wee small hours…
and the novel become the norm
once more…
……..well, if I was looking for a happy ending! The idea of a crisis not starting with a bang made me really think, and as I meandered down through your verse it really gave me pause for thought…excellent piece, even if taking the plunge with you was a heavy one…
Thanks Ain! My partner’s depression is the reason I have so much time to write but I would much rather she was up and about…
So very well written, Andrew! Depression hides in the shadows and haunts in the dark. It is a lonely traveler, rarely understood by those around us.
Thanks Dwight – you are quite right…
Your opening stanza is so stunning in its accuracy. Depression is not easy to live with and is equally debilitating for the entire family as you rightly mentioned. I do hope, “hoping a habit will take hold
and the novel become the norm
once more…
I can understand why this kept you up through the night and I can’t thank you enough for sharing this.
Thank you Punam, it helps to share and I thank you for your prompt 💜
You are welcome, Andrew.
Yes, indeed. That is how depression crawls in. It’s horrifying. Loved reading this. Thanks so much.
In my anonymous AA life, I’ve had serveral friends who never drank again but committed suicide because of depression … Of one a fellow said, some people are like ducks, so smooth and fine on the surface and paddling like hell underneath. Managing the black dog while it eats them from within. Afterwards everyone blames themself for not seeing it sooner. But its such a private hell and walking through it (or not) seems a fate decided long before or a decision between the individual and their quiet powers.
A wonderful opening stanza.
Thanks Judy, several people have said the same and I guess the first and perhaos the second are more poetic and the rest is more narrative – I’m not sure if that’s good or bad…
An intense piece of writing. The opening line speaks loudly even if krisis doesn’t come with a bang. One can feel it. Depression and feelings of melancholy are difficult to overcome. One day, one step at a time.
Thanks Truedessa, I have written many poems in my writing group about how my patrner is lost at present and it is hard not to feel guilt as if one failed to see it coming, to sound the alarm, to somehow have helped fight it off. It forces me to see the boundary between our ttwo selves – to treasure for both of us, the best of 42 years of memories and use that to fuel the effort to be present in wharever way is necessary in this dificult time…
Too bad we can’t just shoot that cat and start over again. This was a tough prompt.
Indeed Nolcha – if only it were so simple…
Hi Andrew, a most excellent poem about depression. The comparison to a savage cat is powerful.
Thanks Robbie, it seemed an apt metaphor…
This really digs in to my feelings, so sad, so moving, a living grief unresolved.
Thanks Paul, it is a heavy time with no end in sight for my partner…
The image of krisis coming as a cat…. we will not now until we are gripped by its jaws…. terrifying to think like that.
Thanks Björn – I am afraid that living with someone with a mental health issue is, in a way, catching, and writing is my prophylactic whilst being there for Barbara whenever she is present or in need of anything…
And then there are the frogs who don’t know they are being gradually boiled. I am struck by the title here and keep staring at it as if its from a new language.
That frog metaphor is also apt Colleen and I appreciate what you say about the title too…
I’ve been living this lately, it really resonated with me.
Thank you Christopher, I hope you are getting through it…
Andrew, I hope you submit this one for the anthology. Depression and anxiety seem to go hand in hand. Once they have developed strong roots in the psyche, it is difficult to dig them over. Managing them is often the thing to do. I remember you mentioned your wife’s struggle before and sorry to hear her current status. Does she have creative outlets that can at least distract her for periods of time?
She does Li, and sometimes it does distract her for a while and that is a small step forward, thank you! It is not one I am submitting as it is more personal but I undedrstand why you might feel I should…
typo. correction: over = out
This is true, having lived through it and still feel it in the back of my mind sometimes, making hard to adopt a habit, irregular sleep patterns, insomnia etc.. I think your poem is beautiful.
Thank you Mrityunjay, I wish it was not a subject that I had to write about, beautifully or otherwise…
There’s no ‘snapping out of it’ for sure. Wish you both well.
Thank you Petru, I live in hope of Barbara coming out the other side…
I never knew depression could also be explained so Beautifully!
U nailed it and that stealth moves of it scares me too …..
so bful words
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I did recognise your name Afshan though I had to go back and search my blog to find that it has been 3 years and that you were part of the supportive group of friends who WhatsApped encouragement to each other during the A to Z. How are you, how is your daughter, what’s new?
Thank you for your kind comment, I really appreciate it. I remember you were having quite a struggle so I hope this is not something that has affected you…
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My goodness this is good! I resonated with;
“the result
of planning, cajoling
caring persuasion
and often a short reprieve
results in a reactive tightening
of the snare that binds
– would have the victim
knaw off their own leg
if only they had the energy.”
Thanks Sanaa – I thought I had pasted a new link in Mr Linky but ended up with the previous one getting a second airing…
Depression affects so many others, but How would you know? Excellent title.
Thanks Sara, I have long felt that mental health conditions are “catching” by others in close proximity – in a household say, and one needs to take preventitive care…
Repairing always takes longer.
Indeed it does and so painful to watch the struggle too…